Query: Does "desire" for god not defeat enlightenment vs purely immersing and
experiencing the supreme? Is it not the ego oh Sanjaya that says "I never tend to deploy anyone who does not
have absolute faith in God". You said the spiritual path is difficult - sure it is. But my understanding is
we are all on the spirtual path whether we have a choice or not. All are divine, all are holy, and every dust
is a spirtual being veiled in Maya, is it not Sanjaya?
The desire for god stems from the form of human being... from one known
as Vijay Kumar only! The existence of Vijay Kumar is limited to the body... the present body! The moment the
body dies... the existence of Vijay Kumar also dies! In the present life it is Vijay Kumar who has to enact
ones karma to purify the soul atman within.
If Vijay Kumar does not act... the soul atman that has taken the body of
Vijay Kumar would remain in its inert state until a new body is manifested! The desire by Vijay Kumar of
finding and meeting God in his lifetime is not wrong. The moment all dross impurities within the soul atman
remove... for all practical purposes the usage of Vijay Kumar as body ceases!
The moment Vijay Kumar gained self realization in 1993... I of Vijay
Kumar as body became distinct from I of Vijay Kumar before realization. I of Vijay Kumar after self
realization am only symbolic... just to address the existence of Vijay Kumar as a human being! Truthfully
only after I melts forever... one gains self realization... never before!
The presence I of Vijay Kumar... the man who realized God in 1993 denotes
the superficial 1% impurity Vijay Kumar am presently imbibed with! The moment Vijay Kumar gains absolute
purity... the soul atman existing within the body of Vijay Kumar would leave forever! Until the moment Vijay
Kumar has retained the body... the impurities limited to 1% remain!
The presence of 1% superficial impurities in a realized being does not
announce presence of ego within Vijay Kumar. Once the block of silver has been purified forever... the
superficial oxidation carries no meaning! This superficial impurity can always be wiped clean! In a similar
manner, Vijay Kumar can wipe out the impurities within at own will.
That would only happen the moment Vijay Kumar desires leaving the mortal
frame forever. The time is not yet ripe for Vijay Kumar to leave the mortal frame! I have yet to go miles
before my duty as a humble servant of God... a dutiful soul atman completes! Vijay Kumar is simply a grain of
sand... a purified soul... The whole mound God Almighty!
After gaining enlightenment... one does not experience anything! Having
gained absolute purity the question of experiencing anything does not arise. The moment we gain 1%
superficial impurity... all experiences of the ephemeral world becomes a reality! As a realized soul Vijay
Kumar does experience sufferings and happiness but only momentarily.
Having realized God... Vijay Kumar never attached self to the karma
performed! Performing everything with a detached attitude is the gist of life! As a god realized being Vijay
Kumar is aware of both the worlds... the ephemeral and the inner world! To maintain a balance between the two
is the most difficult task of all. Why?
My wife Neeru and my two daughters belong to the ephemeral... the mortal
world! For them my realizing God carries no significance. In the eyes of my wife I as a husband am the
biggest failure unable to fulfill even the basic requirements of life. According to her I am a duffer... the
biggest idiot in life. She is a woman of the materialistic world. She is not wrong. It is only I who has
wronged her by following the spiritual path while living in family life (Grihastha ashram).
According to my wife I should not have married and remained a bachelor if
I were to pursue the spiritual goal of life. Probably she is right. What if God Almighty ordained otherwise!
While living in Grihastha ashram (family life) if one can reach the highest portal of spiritual realm...
probably that was what God Almighty desired of me. This perhaps is the requirement of Kali Yuga
Thousands probably more people roam the world searching for God. Hordes
of people can be found living in Haridwar, Varanasi and other religious centres of the world! Their simple
desire gaining access to the kingdom of God via the Bhakti path! Desires and wishes carry absolutely no
meaning in the spiritual world. We need to enact karma based on our goal of life!
If I Vijay Kumar married... it was simply destined to be! When I started
on the spiritual path at 11 years of age... I truly did not understand the meaning of religion and
spirituality at all! Even after I got married... the concept of religion and spirituality did not become
clear. Slowly as the impurities within my soul atman decreased, I became aware of the spiritual world
Agreed... primarily every human being is spiritual. Yet, ever since every
soul atman started on its cosmic journey... the goal of life remains gaining emancipation at the earliest!
Every human being has been ordained a journey of 12.4 million earthly years (a cycle of 1.1 million
manifestations) to reach the stage of enlightenment. Who knows what we shall be in the next manifestation!
Maybe our karma revert us back to the animal form! Why not travel the spiritual path now!
In whatever stage of life I may had been... it is for certain I was
definitely not born on the karma index of 8.399999 so that my next manifestation automatically ended at 8.4
millionth manifestation! I tried taking a quantum jump by practicing absolute celibacy for a minimum period
of 12 years and that resulted in full awakening of my Kundalini absolutely unknown to me.
Out of 1.1 million manifestations in the human form it is quite possible
by the grace of God Almighty to reach the last manifestation... the 8.4 millionth manifestation in present
life! By practicing absolute celibacy for a minimum period of 12 years in continuation one can awaken the
Kundalini fully. This is extremely difficult to practice practically... yet, not impossible!
If I need climbing the Empire State building, I can take the staircase...
the normal route! What if I take the fastest elevator by practicing absolute celibacy for a minimum period of
12 years! Cutting short the spiritual path is possible by the grace of God! Most human beings do not do it.
Rather everyone fears traveling the uncharted spiritual path!
It is the bulldog determination of Winston Churchill... keeping all eggs
in one basket... the will power exercised by Swami Vivekananda that wins the day! We are all divine... agreed
for all living beings have within them a spark of divinity... God Almighty present in us in minuscule form as
our soul atman!
The presence of soul atman within the body does not mean we travel the
spiritual path unknowingly! The doctrine of karma... the law of karma is governing in the cosmic system!
Unless we act... unless we perform our part of karma... the soul atman within us remains where it is! If we
desire expediting the spiritual journey we need take the elevator straight up by practicing absolute celibacy
for a minimum period of 12 years in continuation!
May God bless all!
Always there to clarify your queries (send your query),
Vijay Kumar "Atma Jnani" ... The Man who Realized God in 1993! Send your
A to Z of I and Vijay Kumar explained in words everyone can easily understand and
fathom. More on ego can be found at : Higher Self
... Vijay Kumar - 13 June 2010.
Full text of query: Also, does "desire" for god not defeat
enlightenment vs purely immersing and experiencing the supreme? Is it not the ego oh Sanjaya that says "I
never tend to deploy anyone who does not have absolute faith in God".
You said the spiritual path is difficult - sure it is. But my understanding is we are all on the spirtual path
whether we have a choice or not. All are divine, all are holy, and every dust is a spirtual being veiled in Maya,
is it not Sanjaya?
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